Not Yours

I think the solution to the problem lies in the following. There are things in which we find it easy to make compromises, or at least we could do so. And then there are things that go against the grain, where, no matter how much you want it, compromise is impossible. Theoretically, it is possible, but for us, it is such a fundamental issue (of honor, conscience, or values) that practically - no way. Even if you manage to deceive yourself, you can't deceive life. The same is true with feelings. If they are not there at the beginning, why would they come later? They seem to increase (in some cases), but they are artificially forced and directed at an image, not a real person. Somewhere, perhaps, there is a person who fits the image, but it is definitely not this man.